Beyond Words

So much has happened the last few months I hardly know where to begin.  Actually I have tried to begin this blog several times.  My delete button is hot to the touch right now from overuse.  My world has been forever changed, and in case you were wondering, changed for the better.  December 16th we meet Chloe Joy.  She has been a delight, except for the random moments, which are few and far between, when she acts like a child who has just been moved half way around the world to a strange house with strange people who eat weird food and live in sub zero blizzard land. We are amazed everyday with how well she is adjusting.  We have many hurdles to jump over, but many of my fears and wonderings were unfounded.  I don't know why I try to get ahead of God so often.  Silly right?  I guess as a mom you just want to be prepared so you can give your best to the children you love.  Oh I do love my kids...all 3 of them!

I have learned so many valuable nuggets of truth through this entire experience, and I'm sure I cannot express them adequately.  When your heart is changed, there just aren't words sometimes.  When your world expands, there just aren't photos that give it justice.  Yet, I will try to express my heart, so here is my attempt at sharing, through pictures, what I have learned; here is my attempt at giving words to an experience that really is beyond words.

#1.  Sometimes it snows, so enjoy it.  Sometimes it snows again, so enjoy it.  Sometimes it is so cold you can't enjoy it, so build a fire inside and bond with the ones that you love, and that love you. Sometimes it snows again, so try really hard to enjoy it!

#2  Noodles are good with spaghetti sauce, soy sauce, or almost any kind of sauce.  

#3  I have so much to be thankful for and NEED to stop and take record of all of those gifts whether big or small.

#4  God works in mysterious ways and leads us, preparing us for times like today.  I bought a necklace when Em and Nick were little. The necklace was designed to add cute little people pendants representing your children.  For some reason I also purchased an additional girl pendant.  Hum?  

#5  There is nothing better than a dad who loves you!

#6 As Chloe sports Nick's shirt while helping with the laundry, I am reminded that we need someone to look up to; someone that will be an example for us to follow.  

#7  Be creative and think outside the box even if others look at you like you are silly.  (Note the crayons in the bib!)  You never know what blessing will be just around the corner, or right under your nose.

#8  If this picture had sound you would hear...Where's Cwowee?  I know know. Translation:  Where's Chloe?  I don't know.  I guess sometimes you think you are hiding but you're not!

#9  Sometimes you need to laugh.  So if that takes wearing your rainbow colored kitty apron and dad's winter hat, do it.

#10  There are so many truths in this photo I don't know where to begin.  I originally thought I would crop out the potty chair, but then decided that everybody potties and when someone gives you a potty chair and you like it...put it in the living room for all to admire.  (Please don't worry it is in the bathroom now.)  I also really like the duo in the background admiring the whims of a chocolate faced dancer.  So people, eat chocolate and do the happy dance.

#11 There are so much to learn in life. Stop, take the time, and help someone today!  

#12 Relax and drink tea.  Notice that it is a tea set, thus indicating that you need to invite your closest, most trusted people to the party!  We can't make it through this life alone.  Surround yourself with those that care about you.  Surround those you care about.  Relax and drink tea!

Ok so maybe I didn't learn all of these things through the adoption process but many of them are for sure a clear depiction of my learning and growth.  I do think my biggest area of growth was facing my fears head on and allowing God to take care of me (and my family) every step of the way.  It may not have been the way I thought it should be, or anticipated it would be, or wanted it to be, but as I look back through this process, His plans were always better than mine.  Silly me again!  

I am reading the book called Before You Were Mine by Susan TeBos and Carissa Woodwyk.  The following passage resonated with me and the thoughts and feelings I am having right now.  I hope it will with you also.

"We are not sure how God works that out (the miracle of adoption), but he often reveals himself in surprising ways, and there are many things we cannot explain lest we minimize his very self.  Whether he asked us to adopt or we asked him if we could becomes unimportant.  What matters is that the God of the known universe and beyond invites us to respond to many needs...adoption being one.  When we accept the invitation or ask to be invited, the miracle unfolds."

Trust, obey, listen, and go...

or should it be.

listen, obey, trust, and go...

or should it be, ...

Well you get the idea...if God calls, He's got you covered, just go!

Delightful Christmas Miracle

The final leg of our journey home with Chloe Joy!  

Christmas Eve Day in China:  The Van Ride to Hong Kong

  This van ride was an experience that hopefully will be a once in a life time experience. It was a ride to remember, or forget, depending on which way you look at it.  Poor Chloe threw up right as we were arriving at the hotel. It was sorta like riding in a car with a student driver going 80 miles an hour on a highway with 1000 other student drivers.  The driver remembered to never use his turn signal or wait to merge, just went to the lane he wanted when he wanted.  Also he chose to ride the brakes and the gas pedal the entire time.  The driving in China is so different than America.  We took lots of deep breaths; Emily and I tried to focus on something other than the traffic. 

During the van ride I cried several times, not because of the driving, because I was holding Chloe, realizing that she was leaving everything familiar, and coming to a place where we pray she finds hope and a future.  It was an emotional ride for me.

Christmas Eve Night in China: New and Forever Friends 

After recovering and cleaning up at the hotel we had supper with another family from our travel group.  We feel so blessed that they were a part of our journey.  They are an amazing family with an adorable son.  This experience will bond us forever.

Christmas Morning in China: A Day of Travel

After sleeping, or trying to sleep...we were so ready to be home...we boarded our plane for San Francisco.  Chloe was so good during this flight, playing, eating, sleeping a wee little bit, and enjoying the snacks and food.  She had a seat between Tom and I.  Em and Nick were right behind us.  This seating arrangement, and all of our flight seating arrangements, were possible because others, many of whom could not speak English, offered or willingly agreed to change seats with us.  Everyone was so nice.  

Christmas Morning in America: The Miracle is Happening 

After a safe landing in San Francisco, we went through customs and immigration; Chloe became an official US Citizen Christmas Day 2013.  We left China around noon on Christmas Day and arrived in America late Christmas morning;  Chloe had been awake for around 20 hours. She did amazingly well considering, but started to lose her composure in the airport.  She did not want to board another plane, nor did we, but we knew what the end result would be, she did not. She did fall asleep on the flight to Chicago and after landing continued to sleep as we taxied around the runway waiting for planes to be deiced. Needless to say the rest of us were literally on the edge of our seats as we waited for a terminal to become available.

Christmas Night: New Memories, A New Start

The Myers' Rav mobile, loaded with 4  large suitcases, 4 adults, 1 carry on suitcase, 3 overstuffed backpacks, a stroller, a car seat, a delightful 2 1/2 year old, and a random assortment of memorabilia headed toward the much desired destination...food.  We were so hungry.  We ended up stopping at Steak and Shake because it was open...remember it is Christmas night.  I have never tasted a more delicious burger or fry, nor had Chloe :)  After the food stop we were on our way through the snow to "home".  Home!  The trip was uneventful.  Chloe did very well in her car seat.  This was the first time she was ever in a car seat.  She could have protested in the most wild of ways, but no not Miss Delightful!  When we pulled in our driveway we saw a beautifully handcrafted welcome sign .  Our neighbors win the prize.  Truly the best.  We are blessed.  

(We'll see what kind of sign they make us when summer is over and we have come to swim in their pool everyday!)

Showing Chloe her home was (I need to break right here to wipe tears from my eyes) unbelievable. Everyone walked around the house together and told her about our home.  She probably had never seen a single dwelling home before.  She most likely spent most of her time in one room. I cannot image what she was thinking or feeling.   Just as a side note and I realize it is random: I wonder what it will be like to wander around heaven someday.  Experiencing the treasures that await us there.  

(Please pray that I can meet Chloe's birth mom in heaven and can give her a big hug!) 

** The days that follow are a bit of a blur.  Jet lag does funny things to the memory.  I do know that we had breakfast as a family, willingly, and without protest at 5:00 one morning because everyone was wide awake and having a great time...until around 10:00 a.m. when we all wanted to go back to bed.  

2 Months Since Meeting Chloe:  Final Thoughts

After listening to a sermon by Pastor Sam, which carried me through the last days of our wait for Chloe, I was taught again about the first miracle that Jesus performed.   Right now in my life journey, I feel a bit like the disciples in John 2 who were carrying the jug of water. They were just doing what they were told, fumbling along. Yet, the water in that jug turned into wine. A miracle occurred.  All the disciples did was carry the jug like they were told. Nothing special right?  I am not doing anything special either, just fumbling along, yet God is doing this incredible transformation right before my eyes.  I have no doubt that this was His design. Adoption is something that has been in my heart since I was a young girl, but I had given this desire back to God years ago knowing Tom and I needed to both agree. I knew I wanted to heed the calling to care for orphans and widows, but decided that I would do so through another avenue. 

THEN...

It was laid on Tom's heart in early July 2011 that we should adopt. Chloe was born June 24, 2011.  That, my friends, is no coincidence.  I'm not sure why I, this flawed inadequate almost middle aged momma, have been chosen to carry the jug I am carrying, but I am more sure now than ever, that we all have a jug to carry, and we can all experience a miracle. 

This little ladybug just discovered the miracle of cutout cookies with frosting! 

Yes miracles come in all shapes and sizes!

Thank you friends for going on this journey with me!